• Santa Maria Maggiore

    On my first trip to Italy, I only had time to see three of the four major basilicas. I knew that when I’d one day return, St. Mary Major (or, in Italiano, Santa Maria Maggiore) would be my first stop. I promise that when we planned this year’s pilgrimage I didn’t know it was a ten-minute walk from the hotel!

    Rome is a fascinating city, with centuries-old ruins beside modern structures, and massive basilicas in the middle of busy intersections. Best of all is walking into these churches, feeling the bustle melt away and, in this particular case, being greeted by the largest Marian church in Rome.

    It’s impossible to take it all in at once, standing in awe before larger-than-life paintings and sculptures of the saints. I didn’t know what lay beneath the altar, but saw people descending the double staircases, so I followed. I wasn’t expecting the Crypt of the Nativity, which is said to contain wood from Jesus’s crib.

    I’m generally skeptical of Jesus relics, but just the thought of it took me aback. Real or not, I stared for a long time at that ancient wood. I imagined maybe it could be true. I eavesdropped on a small tour group nearby, and watched its women kneel before the crib. I joined in, with no concrete prayer in mind, but it felt right.

    With the hotel so close by, I visited again later in the week for Sunday Mass. Despite researching English Masses several times, this is not where I ended up—the elaborate side chapel that looked full of tourists was in Italian (who says all tourists speak English?). But I remained anyway. I’d always wanted to attend Mass in a foreign language, so why not in a major basilica?

    I also learned this particular chapel was designed by Michaelangelo. Look at that detail!

    It’s said that you can attend Mass anywhere, that it’s the same wherever you go. My (very) limited Italian offered a vague idea of what was said, but I knew enough to recognize Jesus’s name (Gesù) and make the sign of the cross. I absorbed every moment of the Eucharist, from rising from the pew, waiting beneath those sweeping frescos, and accidentally taking the long way back to my seat. The Eucharist is the same wherever you go, regardless of language. It wasn’t lost to me how I’ll probably never again receive Him like that, in a major basilica, beneath Michelangelo’s masterpieces.

    The day prior had been a wearying day of tourism, and I’d miraculous made it to 8 a.m. Mass. We didn’t have anything concrete scheduled for that Sunday, so I took my time leaving. Though I’d said this basilica was a must for my “next” visit, I hadn’t thought when, or if, that would actually happen. It ended up being much more than checking a church off the “to-see” list.


  • Temporary

    I went through this abandoned photography phase. Not that I took photos myself (trespass in abandoned locales? No thanks!), but was intrigued by dilapidated buildings. Malls were my favorite—cavernous stores and broken escalators, once bustling and now returned to nature. In my hiking heyday, I loved to find ruins on the trail. I thought of the people who lived or worked there, fascinated that I stood on ground that was once solid.



    welcome home!
     

    When left on its own, everything returns to nature. Society itself is temporary; when the shopping malls close, plants crawl through the cracks of escalators and trees burst through floor tiles. It reminds me of the delicate balance life holds, how at any moment it can all crumble. And how quickly it happens—you forget to mow the lawn one week, then two, and suddenly you’re the abandoned lot on the street.

    It’s a stark contrast to God. Sometimes I get discouraged, how life is a constant need to maintain. Mow the lawn, wash your hair, do all these little tasks to put off the overgrown and unruly. Eternity isn’t like that. Heaven doesn’t need someone to sweep the golden roads; the angels don’t need a midday nap. It’s easy to get swept up in the anticipation. Why hang around here when a perfect, eternal life is right around the corner? I often wondered this in my pre-Catholic life. Great, I’m saved and going to Heaven. What else is there to do here? Why doesn’t God call us Home right after that salvation prayer?

    There’s a kind of beauty in destruction, though. We need this temporary world to understand the perfection of the next. God isn’t just handing out rewards because we say He exists. No, we have to work at it. We have to experience daily life, even if it’s a drag sometimes. We have to wake up, wash our hair, maintain our bodies and homes. We have to work, so that someday we can appreciate the relief of resting in God.

    Besides, I still enjoy coming across ruins in the woods. It’s not just fascination with the old and abandoned. It’s also a reminder of God—humans go through cycles of creation and destruction; we’re constantly building and replacing and maintaining our world. But God is the constant, the unchanging. No matter what happens around us, there is comfort in the One that doesn’t change. I think we can appreciate, and cope with, everything else because of that.


And they said to him, “Inquire of God, we pray thee, that we may know whether the journey on which we are setting out will succeed.”

And the priest said to them, “Go in peace. The journey on which you go is under the eye of the LORD.”

—Judges 18:5–6

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